Do you ever feel like you want to be in another place and just stay there for good? What is the reason behind it? Do you think you might love the people and enjoy your whole experience there? Is it for the reason that you are running away from something or you think you might get the opportunity to a better life? There are many answers for these questions and it depends on every person you are going to ask. For me, the thought of moving in another place somewhat gives me mixed emotions. A quarter excited and the rest, frightened.
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When I learned that we are moving here in Canada maybe 2 years back, I went blank, it is like nothing is in my head. It took me some time to process what my parents told me. I never really saw myself in another place but the Philippines. I grew up there, went to school there, had many friends and many memories that I will forever remember. I was actually unhappy about the thought of moving here or anywhere else. I love travelling, I really do but staying there for good is another story. I have shared on my recent post that we first went to Australia but that it didn't last for long, my brother and I went back to the Philippines to finish our study and my parents stayed in Australia because of their work.
Our application for migrating here in Canada has been processed for more than 10 years. As long as I can remember, my mom and dad always talk about Canada. They really want to stay here for good. When my mom and dad received a letter from the Government of Canada telling that we are approved for migrating here in Canada, my parents did not waste any more time. They processed another set of papers, went to Philippines to get me and my brother, and then here we are. Things happened so fast, I didn't get to prepare myself physically and emotionally.
My first month here was a horrible feeling. I was sad all day, felt home sick and always cried myself to sleep. It was like I have been in the most horrible break up ever. I'm showing signs of depression which is more frightening. I was aware that what I am doing is not healthy that is why I helped myself to fight against it. I did everything I can by diverting my attention away from missing my life in the Philippines and keeping myself busy by studying and working hard. I can say that what I did somehow helped me move on. Eventually, I came to the realization that my life is different now. I accepted the fact that there is something better for me here. Everything has its reason and someday I'll know why here.
For now, the answer to the question above is still unclear, but one day if someone asks me what I love about Canada, hopefully I get to answer "I love the people, I enjoy my life there and it was the opportunity for my family and I to have a better life."
Yes, I do believe things happen for reason. I remember my first month in Canada, it was really cold, everything were different from your back home, the people, the food , the culture and the language, but I never regret it what I have been through, it made me stronger than ever and made me adoptable. I think if you find something interesting to do or study, it doesn't matter where are you.
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